Since I can't anyhow post things on fb, den I shall rant everything here. Baby, I know you will see this.

Today is day 5 since you started this game. Though its only 5 days, why do I feel that months have past? You know I want this game to end fast, you know I hate ppl coming into our r/s. But why must we play this game? I find it tiring and childish. You're back in camp now. I thought tonight I can have a good talk with you about that bastard. I guess he know about the MSN I added him is a fake account so he keep pestering me about my email today. I really don't know what to do now. I SMS you to call me asap in the afternoon, I never thought you will call. But when at night I SMS and bomb your phone, why you didn't pick up at all? I'm really hurt and upset. Yet I got to console myself and say perhaps its your backache killing you again. So you popped some painkillers and have a early night. Other than this, I can't find any other reasons or excuses alrdy.

I know you want me to trust you, but sometimes the jealous and sour feeling is just there. You and her lovely dovey, while me get kick and thrown aside. Got to fake up a story that I'm in love with another guy for her to see. Worst is trying to por the lanpa of a cb kia. I swear this feeling is horrible. Your hot and cold attitude towards me, idk which is real and fake. You say our love line is temporary snap off. When everything is over, you'll tie it back again. But when will this time come? Sometimes tears swell up in my eyes, but I won't let them flow. When my tummie hurts day and night, I dare not complain like how I used to. Cos I'm a brave girl. You don't like to see me crying like a big baby, so I can only swallow the tears down my throat. And I did everything for the sake of you.

Today morning I receive a call from SHP HR. I'll be starting work next mon. Finally I'm out of the house working again. Till then, I won't have time to entertain this cb kia. I just hope this sat we can settle things once and for all. I don't have the energy to play anymore. I'm going to put my heart on working, thinking of thousand and one ways to tackle the nasty patients. Because I heard feedback that nowadays the patients are worst than before. So at the end of the day I'll be tired after fighting a war of screaming and getting scolded by them. And we're suppose to save up!! Where has this plan gone to?!

I love you bee. Still the same words. All I want is this game to end asap and you to return by my side.

Madeline.
13 December.
Enjoying the last year of teenage life.

xoxoxo

I strongly believe in, ЌαЯмά

善有善报，恶有恶报，
不是不报，时间未到 -
因果报应。

"What goes around comes around what goes up must come down."