Chubby with her new pink bear from baby. Its her toy! (^^)

Baby, this time I didn't buy notebooks like how I did in the past. I brought a scheduler!

With the super exp cornflakes, yet yummy!

Meet babylove after I end work yesterday. He feed me with Vodka again! One can of pepsi with 20ml of alcohol I guess and one can of redbull with at least 30ml in it. He only drink abit and the rest I drink up. He and his classic excuse, I cannot drink too much because I must ride bike. So he win already lo!

Since the night before I had a super bad insomnia and I thought by drinking abit will let me nap for at least a few hours. I also know I don't have the standard of drinking. Cause I hate the smell and taste. But idk why it doesn't make me fall asleep, only whole body very nua. Rest for awhile and I become very awake till 1am still don't want go home. Clever boyf can tell I never drunk at all even though I act like some retarded I guess. Kns!

I remember there's once I drank a little and boyf got to pump petrol before sending me home. I was wearing my windbreaker at the petrol kiosk I felt so warm and uncomfortable. Boyf was slow in making the payment and I almost want to vomit. He scared when he's riding I puke at him so he ride slowly that night. Hahaha!

I reply "Of cos. Today (which is yesterday) I'm not going out but tml I'm going out."

I think she almost faint and jitao have the sian 1/2 face when she hears it. Hahaha!

Filled up the dates in the scheduler and I'm going to write down everybody birthday in it! Cool! FB is really good!

& Merry X'mas!
(Though this X'mas issin't merry at all)

Yesterday work till 10am so I ask boyf to come fetch me from work. Too tired so slept the whole day. Tsk!.

The day before did some supermarket shopping. Brought Kelloggs' Special K Red Berries cornflakes which cost $7+. Expensive I know. But its nice lo! And apple ham. I even ask the counter anutie whether apple ham have apple taste anot. Lol! One slice around a dollar. Hurhur!.

Got Hansel and Gretel scheduler from Artbox! Can use it for next year. Yay! I've been spending more than $200 after I've gotten my pay. Now bank only left with 2 digit again. =(

Is it wrong for a 18 year old girl to go home at 3am in the morning? No what! I admit last night I didn't even bother to tell her I ain't going home despite boyf keep asking me to call her. I know she will ask me to go home immediately and got to listen to her nagging again. So for what I bring myself trouble to call her?

Now she's restricting me to go home by 12am. Walao eh! Might as well kill me. She keep thinking that I treat the house like a hotel. Happy den go home early, not happy den go home late. To her, being a good child is to go home straight after I end work, have dinner and den sleep at 10pm. Even if I sleep as early at 8am, she will start nagging why I so early sleep and bla. Blaming me the night before I went out till SO late that's why very tired. Zzz. No matter what she say, I must listen to her. On sat night I cannot go out, must stay at home use laptop or watch tv.

As long as she sees my face at home, she'll be contented. Its like wtf? I'm only 18 you can't be asking me to rot at home everyday can! She should at least be happy that I don't hit the club or pubs making myself drunk everytime I reach home reeking with strong alcohol smell.. And there's one period of time I went home everyday on the dot because baby got to work, nobody to accompany me. She will den ask me, "Now you so good uh? Never go out already? Thought you always like to fly till midnight den come back?" Waaah! My mum is seriously mad. Go out also want to nag, never go out also want to say. Sometimes I really don't know what she wants.

If your mum is like mine, how will you feel? I really hope my mum will go out to work or mix with those working woman instead of typical HDB aunties!! Her mindset is always like a rectangle block. 10 years later still will never change. I guess for these few days I got to be a good girl and go home after work. But going home at 12am on a sat night is still a NO-NO to me! Heeheehee!

Labels: My Mum

The 2 brothers. Cute!

Chub says hello to you!

& me hate that sickening big pimple!! Lucky its gone now. Phew~

I love Chubby's feet!

PS: I feel like inking the word "Autumn" on my body.

PSS: I'm happy with my shopping loots these 2 days. Heeh!

Boyf went to Msia this morning. Will only be back tml. Glad that I met him last night. :)

PS: Its 2.52pm now and boyf just text me! Happy, happy. (^^)

PSS: 幸福是靠自己去争取的。不管是友情或爱情，有些事错过了就没有了。

Yesterday I brought my first 4D! Anyway, we're watching 2012 but the DVD keep hanging till we tulan. So boyf watch his Taiwan drama and I played FB and MSN with Val and Weiwei. Heeh! We didn't watch Pinocchino. Sad!

Last night might be one of the sweetest time we've spend together. His eyes and expression are innocent, his voice is gentle. For once he threw away the tough looking face and be himself. First time feel that he's so beautiful. Yes, my boyf is beautiful! And I hope he will marry me, not I marry him. Tsk!. =/

PS: Now I belong to you, from this day until forever. Just love me tenderly and I'll give to you, every part of me.

Labels: 10th Monthsary

Just back from meeting boyf. Watch M18 movie! Hahaha! I feel old now. No more $4.60 for polyclinic consultation. Sad! Say till this I think I own the polyclinic $48 still not paid yet. Heeh!

Today is a good day! Saw 3 Malay weddings at the void decks of Yishun, 2 at Tampines lo! When boyf send me back from TPE till my house we didn't stop at any traffic lights. The whole journey is damn smooth. And there're alot of stars on the sky! Whoo! Even boyf said so. Keep telling boyf I'm a lucky star. Muahahaha!

Ohh, & before I meet boyf went to Ah Ma house to nua abit first since its still early. Played with my 2 young cousins and bring them to the playground. Tiring looking after them. They didn't even want to go home. Boyf brought them sweets and lure them back. Cute!

Later gonna meet boyf again. Parted with him half hour ago and now I start to miss him already. And he promise to watch Pinocchio with me the next time round I go his house. Previously we watch Dumbo but the VCD sot lor! Its nice to watch these cartoon again. Have the childhood feeling! I'm an old girl with a young heart. (:D)

Labels: My 18th Birthday

Been 4 days since I last saw boyf. I think I'm use to not seeing him for a long time. Good for us. So when next time he go for NS, we won't suffer too much. That's provided if we're able to last that long. (^^)

Ohh, & boyf specially take half day tml and leave on sunday just to accompany me cos its my birthday! Say till my birthday I gonna ask my dad give me $50 ang pow for me to tide through next wed. I'm really broke le la! $84 till next wed, for most people seems to be alot but I really cmi with that lil amount of money.

Dear boyf, the nurses at my workplace keep saying how handsome and cute you are. Sometimes they even ask about you, how you're doing, why you never come pick me up etc. They really miss you alot la! So in order not to upset them, shouldn't you come and pick me up more often? (^^)

I wonder how my life will be after I've turn legal 18. No longer a lil girl anymore. But I will still be a good mama towards Lil Autumn and evil girlf towards baby. HAHAHA!.

PS: Baby, I'm too lost in you.

This morning woke up as early as 8.30. Prepare and boyf came to find me for the wedding convoy. On the road saw Lil Red Cap at the other side. From far can recognize him because of his banana colour helmet! Tsk!.

I hope this time round you'll change to be a better guy. Cos this will be your only chance left. Yet no matter how much I hated how you hurt me, I never want to give up on you. The silly stupid me will still cling onto you, believe you will change. Afterall you're still my sunshine after the rain. I still love you, my fatty. (L)

PS: You worth my love, but no longer my tears. Every hurt you gave me, I learn to grow stronger and braver. I no longer cry like how I use to.

You've not change bike yet you've already broken part of our contract. How am I going to believe or trust you again? And this is not the first time. You keep saying you love me. Idk if I should believe what you've said. Love is not breaking my heart over and over again. I got to admit I once hurt you badly. But this doesn't mean you can return back your revenge. Plus at that point of time I ain't your girlf. I just promise you that we should not betray each other, yet I did..

Stop asking me not to be angry when you know I will be. Just like if I were to sit on another guy bike and you knew it, I said sorry to you. How will you feel? Btw you're not pillion-ing a girl. You're pillion-ing GIRL(S). Don't say its no choice. All your nonsesne excuses. THEY DON'T HAVE LEGS TO TAKE PUBLIC TRANSPORT OR WALK HUH? Last time when I end work I ask you to come bring me you don't want. I also lan lan take bus and toddle down your house. (But of cos I also got to thank you for sending me home each and everytime. And then accompany me to slack for awhile before going home. So I shouldn't blame you for this ya?) Excuse me, I'm your girlf. SO WHAT RIGHTS AND WHY THE FUCK MUST YOU PILLION THEM? And sorry ain't going to solve anything. I believe I told you this before too.

So can you bloodly stop breaking my fucking fragile heart? Stop taking advantage of my good to you. I'm tired and sick of these nonsense. Oh yes, I'm not going to pay your super four for you. Cos other GIRLS also sit on your bike what. So why should I pay? Ask them to pay a share also la. Each girl sup sup give $200. In no time you can make the first down payment liao siol!

Remember you asking me whether I will get angry or jealous if you were to pillion other girls? I say I'll give you an answer some other time. So now, I say I will. Everytime you pillion, I was hopping mad, cursing and swearing inside my heart. Boyf, sorry to say this. I hope you'll get into accident if you pillion the girls again. The girls legs will have scar and face will disfigure. I hope you can't ride bike anymore. Even if you can't pillion me its okay. Least to stop you to pillion other girls. And I'll curse that all of you will not have happiness. And I'll also smash your hp onto the wall if you start texting other girls. Not I want to be evil, but that's what you promise me. Remember baby, you even sign on the contract. :)

I feel that I do not deserve these kind of treatment from you. I should be treated even better. Because I dare to say I treat you the best. Even better than how I treated myself. I'm sure you're able to tell how much I've change during these past few months right? You ain't blind or stupid. So from this moment on, shouldn't you treat me even better than now? To make the first move, stop doing things that you know will hurt me. Maybe you will think that I ain't good to you like what I've think. But just tell me alright? I can take it and I will change for you. Because it takes 2 hands to clap. It takes both party to build this r/s together. Can't be you always giving in to me right?

你要记得，不是我要做到这么绝情。是你逼我走头无路。是你一直伤害我一次又一次到我真的很累。对你也无话可说。我讨厌一个伤害我又不会听我的话的男朋友！！

With love from your bloody slut girlf who will only kp you,
Madeline.

Labels: A Note For Boyf

X'mas tree at Bugis Junction. Full of glitters and lights. Pretty!

A good mama who washes her daughter clothes w/o complain. HAHAHA!

Lil Autumn new dress.

Her very chio princess headband. Not cheap leh!

I love this.

This look as if I've got long slim hands. HAHAHA!

Mama and daughter love.

BYE!

The 3 girls have left. Working time become damn bored. Angelo cook us lunch on monday and uncle treated us KFC. I miss them lahh!

Boyf came finding me on mon night around 12am. (L) Its been a long time since we spend the whole day together. All because of working.. If only now we're still schooling.... Heeh! (:D)

7 days to Chub 2 months. 11 more days to my birthday. 12 days to our 10th monthsary. 1 more month from today is the first time I meet boyf at Charcoal! I still remember okay! Tsk!. Time past so fast. Now is December already. I want to stay young!!

Madeline.
13 December.
Enjoying the last year of teenage life.

xoxoxo

I strongly believe in, ЌαЯмά

善有善报，恶有恶报，
不是不报，时间未到 -
因果报应。

"What goes around comes around what goes up must come down."