I'm going to work very very hard to push my commission up high high! So I can spend and save up more. I don't want to be always broke at the end of the month struggling. :(

Just 2 more months to baby enlisted date! Super excited cos his iphone will be mine! And I swear I'm so gonna bling bling it because he doesn't allow! Muahahahaha!

This morning got one stupid fucking irritating black cat keep following me wherever I go. From far he/she jiu stare at me as if going to eat me up. I faster siam far far away to the other block den the cat still can find me sial! Think because my perfume smell too strong already. But to me I smell nothing. Anyway, this same cat last time also scare me before. Doesn't seems to be afraid of ppl. I scared of cats can!!

Anyway, being a very thoughtful girlf, I create a new 'sticker'. Counting down to his enlisted date. Cos baby is going to P.Tekong so its about 25min ferry ride to the lil island. The background sea depicts he's leaving the island and carrying his bag. Cuteee right? Hahaha! Like super happy to see him going NS. Yes I am! Going to NS means freedom for him already. We can go M'sia for a good food feast, do cheap shopping, find the ang mor to ink me again and etc. I feel like inking boyf name on my chest. But I scared next time I jitao regret till lao sai. Lol! Actually M'sia issin't as horrible or dirty as how I use to think. Somehow I enjoy it. You can do whatever you want. Throwing cigg butt on the floor also nobody care. Even if you get caught, just tip the policeman with kopi money will do the trick. Heeheee.

My passport only chop 2 times ever since I renew it again last year. The 2 Jb trip with baby. My parents went for a cruise trip last year and I didn't go due to exams. They went to Genting last weekend and I can't leave work so got to give it a miss again. Lol. Super pathetic I know.

I wanna go overseas with baby, chubchub and doudou! (^^)

Its 2.10am now and I'm still wide awake despite the very lil sleep last night. Or should I say I slept very well last night? Perhaps under the influence of alcohol and stuffs. I hadn't been sleeping well ever since boyf left my place. I only sleep for a few hours and rush off to work again. Something is very very wrong that I can't sleep. And I've been smoking alot lately. Urgh! I know smoking is bad for health yet I can't stop myself from puffing away. The urge to smoke keep coming and coming repeatly. Tell me how to stop it? At least not smoking heavier and heavier.

I know I should be contented with life. A lovely boyf, cute children, carring family, stable job, yet always lack of money. I hadn't been shopping lately and I'm cutting down my expenses by eating only a meal a day. Like super pathetic. Thank god I'm not hungry or I'll just snack a lil in the afternoon. Sometimes my dad will bring food for me so I've save a lil more from there.

You might be thinking, why the hell do I need so much money for right? To fulfill a long lost promise. A promise that can bring a thousand smiles on his face. If I really did it, I know I'll be very proud of myself. If I can't, at least I know I've tried. But this is a goal I set for myself. I will keep running till I reach the very end. Because the ending point I get in return is priceless.

I have been changing. Changing to be more stingy and less spendthrift. Baby, idk if you can see the changes, but I'm trying. Please don't scold me for skipping meals. Its just that I ain't hungry. I don't eat as much as before. Its good this way, so I can slim down. If you really want to buy me something, get me a bottle of liquor. So I can drink myself till numb and fall asleep. I've been suffering with those sleepless nights and I'm very fustrated.

Baby, you ain't as scary as what people think. I know this is like super random but I still wanna say it. After being with you for quite sometime, I notice some people don't even dare to look at you. Not only guys, girls too. You got such evil eyes to scare people off meh? The first day I met you, I feel comfortable being with you, remember? Everytime I'm with you, I feel very calm. I am who I am. I don't need to act or pretend. When we're apart, thousand of worries and troubles pass by without giving notice. Its making me going crazy. I swear I really need liquor to make me sleep. I want back my sleeeeep!

Its 2.51am now. Let's see what time I'll fall asleep..

Good night world! :)

I might want to talk about this. 6 June, I've been a very naughty girl. I tried to be superwoman and end up injuring my left knee cap. The wound is deep and it will leave a lifetime scar. A lesson learn. Never do stupid things when playing. Only boyf will know what I mean. Teehee. And I can never forget that guy shock expression. Jitao is cuteeeee daooooo~~ ;D

Thank god training was postpone to next monday instead of this friday. If not confirm knock me out. :)

Still thinking what hp to get. SE X10 if confirm a big no anymore because it seems like a fucked up phone to me. Tsk!.

Labels: 16th Monthsary

26 Aug 2010, the day that determin how strong our love will go. Though we won't know what the outcome will be, but I hope we will be happy with the end result. ♥

Madeline.
13 December.
Enjoying the last year of teenage life.

xoxoxo

I strongly believe in, ЌαЯмά

善有善报，恶有恶报，
不是不报，时间未到 -
因果报应。

"What goes around comes around what goes up must come down."