Will be going down to SK and find baby at night. I know my mum will scream at me again. =.=
Now they buy me new handphone, I have no more excuses of not answering their calls liao. =(

Finally my dad brought me new handphone. Haas. Zhao zhi dao I will soak my old hp in water and let it spoil. Lalalala~

Baby is sleeping now and I'm bored. Yawns~ Think I'm going to have insomnia tonight again and the feeling is so damn pek cek. I miss him many many lor! T.T

Hi sickening, thank you for calling me in the morning and ci ji me. I'm now 98% heated up and will explode anytime. I almost quarrel with my boyf because of you again but luckily we retreated back to normal. Phew~ And because of you, my boyf went to shave his head botak. You know how I tried my best to stop him from shaving his head but all because of your silly phone call, he went to the barber early in the afternoon. Tmd. And because of you, I've been living in misery for the past few months. (Read the previous post.) Maybe I should not put all the blame on you, its all because I'm stupid. I'm too attracted to your good looking face. You still dare to ask me why I didn't talk to you in school uh. Hello, I just don't want to bring trouble to myself can. And you know that I've a boyf now, how can you pretend that you don't know anything and ask me out again? This is the most sickening and retarded part. Well, I wish you all the best in your future.

xoxoxo

I seriously need to forget about everything and lead a happy life. All these things are indirectly killing me. I also don't want baby to keep worrying about me. I got to find back my strong courrage that I used to have in the past. Will be going down SK at night to wait for baby end work. I must get use to see him with that botak head. Sian. ='(

I hope I will fall sick soon. Only when I'm sick, my whole body will be numb and I can forget about everything for the time being. I'm sick of this life. I want to run away from reality. Flashback keep running through my head. When I'm bored or alone, it just came into my head. I'm really tired. All thanks to him, I took a wrong step and got to live in guilt everyday. I blame myself for being stupid and silly. My heart is heavy. And I think I'm at the edge of bursting. But there's nothing I can do about it. I got to swallow everything down my throat. Hope God will give me guidance and tell me what to do about it.

First day of holiday jiu so sian liao. I don't know what will happen for the rest of the week. Was on the phone with Nengli till 5am in the morning last night. Update quite alot of things and everything we chat is about our boyfriends. Haahaa! Hmm, but I still prefer we chat about shopping and stuffs.

01. What have you been doing recently?
- Nothing.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
- Sometimes.

03. What happened at 10am today?
- Sleeping.

04. When did you last cry?
- Last friday.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
- Yes. :)

06. What do you want in your life right now?
- Happily Ever After.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
- Umbrella.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-Blanket and chou chou!

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
- East Spring PE shorts.

10. What's the nicest tag in your inbox say?
- When bee says he love me!

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
- No.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
- My cousin shirt.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
- Drag me to hell.

14. What are you proud of?
- The one year of theory in Shatec finally end!

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
- I at home le from beeeeeee.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
- Anyone of us.

17. Do you have any nicknames?
- Of cos.

18. What's something you really want right now, be honest?
- Baby to be by my side.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
- 5am+.

20. Are you currently happy?
- I'm bored.

21. Who gives you best advice?
- Baby.

22. Do you eat whipped cream out of a can?
-Ehh... Yes. Ahahah!

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
- Baby and Nengli.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
- Yes.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
- Nengli.

26. Do you have a little sister?
-No.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
- Think is baby.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
- Yes. Who don't?

29. What annoys you most in a person?
- Idk?

30. Have you ever done cocaine?
- What's that?

31. What is the colour of your room?
- Some pink/purple/yellow white. Idk uh.

32. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
- No, I'm afraid of blood!

33. Where is your cell phone?
- On the table.

34. Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
- Yeapp.

35. Did you speak to your dad today?
- No.

36. Name something you did yesterday?
- Chewing on food.

37. Where's is your ex-girlfriend/boyfriend?
- Idk.

38. Do you have a life?
- No.

39. What colour is your hair?
- Blackie.

40. What's the reason behind your blog song?
- No song.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
- Alot of people.

42. Last time you smiled?
- Last night I guess.

43. Have you changed this year?
- Yes.

44. What are you listening right now?
- Anyone of us.

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
- No.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
- Open la! Walan eh.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
- Live happily.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
- No.

49. Are you waiting for something?
- Wait for money to drop.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
- Getting pregnant. Lol.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
- On the laptop.

52. Do you like it when you get kissed on the forehead?
- Yes yes! ^^

53. Do you text message alot?
- Yes. :D

54. What was the last thing you drank?
- Water.

55. Who always make you laugh?
- Anyonee.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
- Chinese.

57. Favourite website(s)?
- My bloggie.

58. What's your middle name?
- Idk what is middle name lor! =/

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
- Rot again.

60. What do you think you are like?
- Ehh... idk.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
- Alone.

62. Where have you been today?
- My room, living room, kitchen and toilet.

63. What game do you play often?
- Nothing.

64. Who are you missing right now?
- Baby!

65. If you have to choose between love and friend, who will you choose?
- Love.

66. What are you doing right now?
-Doing this survey and chewing on chewing gum.

67. Which primary school are you from?
- Griffiths and Yumin.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
- Pink, Black, Orange.

69. What emotion you like to show?
- (:

70. What is your life to you?
- A life. =.=

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
- Depends.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
- Nobody.

73. Are you happy with the way things are going right now?
- Okok la.

74. Which month are you born in?
- December.

75. How are you feeling right now?
- Sibei sian lorrx.

76. What is the time now?
- 4.52pm

77. Do you like being in pictures?
- Ok lahh.

78. How old are your siblings?
- 15 and 11.

79. Why are you doing this test?
- Cos I'm bored.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
- Eat den sleep.

81. Have you ever been backstabbed by a friend?
-Yes.

82. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- I think is baby uh.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
- Have a good meal with baby den have a heart to heart talk.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
- Baby.

85. Are you wearing makeup right now?
- No.

86. Confused about anything?
- Maybe?

87. Do you prefer to call or text someone?
- Both.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
- Idk?

89. What feeling do you love most?
- Baby hugging me.

90. Do you have a secret that you arent telling anyone?
- Think so.

91. Will tomorrow be better than today?
- Yes.

92. Do you treasure every single friendship of yours?
- Yes.

93. Do you want to see anybody right now?
-Yes.. Baby. =(

94. Is your msn on right now?
-Yes.

95. What would your name be with the first 3 letters?
- Mad. =.=

96. If you could move right now, would you?
- Of cos.

97. Are you still schooling now?
- Having holidays now!

98. What would you feel is no one no longer cares for you?
- Heartbroken.

99. What if your partner two timmed you?
- I know he won't. (: Even if he does, den cry to him lo.

100. How do you feel right now?
- Bored and hungry.

My fingers are sore after typing. And I'm so hungry now lorrrxz.
Off to watch Yi Nan Wang. Byeeexz.

My mum is mad. She ask me to take driving license as if she gonna sponser me. (I rather she sponser bee so he can chauffer me around.) But the no balls me dare not drive uh! I rather take cab. Still say must go take license. At least next time want to business got car easier. Walan eh. She think too highly of her daughter already. Business woman sia. Think of it makes me wanna ROFL. But I'm soooo attracted to Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution and Toyota Prius la! ;)

Last night fetch bee from work. He went home to change and we headed to Mustafa Center around 12+. Cool! That place is not horrible as what I think. Ate supper and we went rounding around City Hall and Raffles Place. Bee sent me home after that. Reach home at 3+ and I'm drop dead. But I know he will be more tired than me because today is Father's Day. Jiayou uh beebeeeee!

& holidays are here! Ahahaha! & I still haven send my resume. Lol!

Tomorrow will be the last paper. Wohoo! And I think I won't be touching books anymore. (:

I miss my dear boyfriend.
I miss slacking with him on saturday nights.
I miss his cooking.
I miss smelling his hair.

Ohya bee, wanna wear hello kitty dress pyjamas and play baby doll with me? :D
(please don't kill meeeee! =x)

I must be mad to post 3 times a day but I still gonna post this.

How is it like to lose 2 unborn child and a child who lives for a barely 36 hours leave you? Before the dear child leave, she had tubes all over her body, staying in Neo-Natal Intensive Care Unit. My heart totally sank. Which parents doesn't want their child to grow healthly? On the day her parents collected her birth cert was also the day they collect her death cert. What left after that was ashes. Now I really feel like crying like nobody's business but I can't. Baby is coming to find me to take things and I don't want him to see me with swollen eyes. Got to hold onto my tears. I got to be strong! :)

xoxoxo

I often close my eyes
And I can see your smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I love you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you suppose to be
The one to wipe my tears
The one to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exist in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

My dear darling Yeo Nengli, I miss you too. Gonna meet you next week when my holidays come!

I miss our sec 3 life.
I miss chilling with you at Starbucks on friday and saturday nights.
I miss slacking with you and Nicholas & co.
I miss going shopping with you.
I miss gossiping things with you.
Last but not least I miss your fucking cuteeee faceeee.
I will give you a great big hug and a sweetest kiss that your boyf can't give it to you when I see you. Ahahaha!

Don't miss me too much darling. You will get to see me soon. :D

I have confidence for POC paper just now because I completed all the short answer questions which I never did in the other papers. Just leave 2 blanks. Best is I did last minute reading in the train. Haaas. I know later de papers, Beverage and WSQ I will die till gao lat. I've not touch the manuals at all. Ahahahah!

So just now after exams, I went to SK and wait for beebeee to end work. Its still early so I walk around Compass Point first. Kiddy Palace makes me damn tempted to have a baby girl. The clothes are damn cuteeeee. Okay, if I never slim down to 45kg I will never have a baby. And bee look down on me. Kns~

Share my childhood memories with bee when we're slacking. Damn funny la! Laugh till my stomach pain den keep farting. Lucky got no smell if not bee sure faint. Lol! Can never find another girl who is as disgusting as me. :D

I have no motivation to study.
I have no mood to send resume and do attatchment.
I have no intrest about school.

Everyday I'm thinking..
When will I forget about everything.
When will beebeee buy a baby doll and play with me.
When will I get married and have baby.
When will I stop smoking.
When will I slim down.
When will I go overseas again.

Oh well, I just can't stop day dreaming.

Today KO exam gonna fail till gao lat. I really don't know how to do the whole paper so I'm the first to leave the room since beebeee is waiting for me.

Went to his house and after that we went to GV Yishun to catch Drag Me To Hell. Walan eh. Sibei scary can!! People with heartattack better don't watch it. Bee and I were holding each other's hand tightly. The way he jumped up really damn cute la! Ahahahah!

At night we went to Grace house to take my mixer back and bee came to my house. He had a good chat with my parents and they ate durians which I cannot tahan!! And now my whole fridge smell of durians. I almost faint when I open the fridge door. Wakao. I used to love durians alot when I'm young but not now. The ba-wu really dang dang. =.=

Yay! We've been together for 4 months! :)

Time flies. 4 months have past. The love and happiness that we shared, the tears that we've flown down from our eyes, all I will never forget. Everything is over. You're still my sunshine after the rain. I love you beebeee! ("v")

xoxoxo

Last night I went to bed at 8, wake up at 10 to wait for baby's text. Den I fall asleep again till 12am when he wakes me up. Sorry that I've neglected you for 2 hours. Slept at 2am after chatting on phone with baby and sleep till today 10.30am to wake baby up. Den I sleep again till 12.30pm. Walao! I've been sleeping for 14 hours.

Okay, till now I still haven study anything for exams and later going to ahma house. Tml KO exam really going to KO lah! Yay, its baby's off day tml so he going to fetch me from school! :D

I realise that this week I've only go to school for 2 days out of the 5 days. Heehee. =/

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The 4 hours of practical is killing me and my legs are aching now. Never felt like this for such a long time and I hate this kind of feeling. That's why till now I've not send out any resume yet. I know I will die in the industry. And next week exams I will die big time. If I flip through the manuals now, I will doze off anytime. Jialat.

I miss beebeee. I hate saying good bye to him. I hate his back view..

I read this from somebody's blog and its kind of intresting. Ahahahaha!

The 5C's for perfect sex.

A guy must have the 5C's for perfect sex. Firstly, he must have a COCK that can errect and he must be CONFIDENT of doing it. Having this 2C's, he should be CAPABALE of making a girl horny. Singapore being a moral country, enforces safe sex. So, as to ensure safety of the ladies, Singapore men should always wear CONDOMS whenever sexual intercourse take place. A man worthy of pleasurable sex should also carry a CANE for more exciting sex. After reading this short message, we hope that men would be able to give women a safer and more thrilling sex experience. Thank you.

Labels: Perfect Sex

I almost faint when I saw baby's transcript. He's a pro luh!

Beebeee, please don't go shave your head botakkk. You will look more fierce with your botak head. :(

I have a bad habit of smelling my soft toys butt. Because I think that's the most nice smelling part of all. Ahahahaha!

Nua at home the whole day doing nothing. Bored~

Baby has a kiam pa face when he diao people or don't smile. That face really makes me feel like slapping him left right center. But when he smile, its very radiant la! With the fucking cute 9 nest he has on his face, OMG! Makes me feel like pinching his fat chubby cheeks. Ahahahahha! I'm crazy..

Baby is sleeping now and nobody pei me chat on the phone. So the very siannxzxz me came to blog.

There will be no lessons later so, YAY! This week I've not gone to school yet uh. So I can only collect baby's transcript on thursday. Ahahahaha! I know he's nervous about it. :D

Exams start next week and I've not start flipping through the manuals yet. I think I will fail badly since I've skipped so many lessons this term. And when I'm in classes, is either I'm falling asleep or day dreaming.

Beeeeebeeeeee, please bring me to the gym cos I wanna lose weight. I know I'm getting fatter lah. So people, please shut up and stop saying that I've got a big tummy!! Least my boyfriend still loves me. Ahahahahah!

xoxoxo

PS: I love you more and more as the days past. Although I did dui bu qi you before, but you still forgive me. This makes me love and cherish you even more. Thanks for making me feel love and pampered! ;)

"God wants us to meet a few wrong person before meeting the right one. So that when we meet the right person, we will learn how to be grateful and cherish the person even more."

Cherish what you have, who is with you, despite what time has taken away.
For no matter how much the person changed time, he/she was the one you fell in love in the very first place.
Details we forget are the details so valuable.
Why do we let flaws cover over perfections?
Never should we forget, when you love someone, we turn their greatest flaws into greatest points.
What makes one different, makes one beautiful.
For when one takes, one should return willingly.
Commitment is not tiring but an act of love.

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Skip school today as I'm too tired to wake up. First time I skip school without baby cos he got to work. So I went window shopping alone lor. Walk into Perlini's Silver and half of my pocket is empty.

Its baby off day tml so he's coming to school and pick me up. Yay! :)

Baby is niceeeee. I tell him I've not taken lunch and he cooked fried rice for me. Although its hot till my tongue going to swollen, but its still yummy~ Finish everything cos I'm too hungry. Ya, half way through practical I'm the first to run. Go SK find him and then he send me home cos he's having spilt shift. And later I'm going to SK again. :)

I love that 4 days 3 nights we spend together. Baby cooks for me, help me with housework and my project. Really, if don't have him I don't think all my projects can't be completed. He even help me do my resume la! But the fucking lazy me is still lazy to send out. The 4 days we only have ourselves without any disturbance. Baby sends me to school and he goes to work as usual. The time I go for school is also the time he goes to work. Seems that everything has been plan nicely. He did loads of wonderful things for me. But why does good times have to past so fast? Hate to see him leave laaaaaaa.

Ohya, I've been bared from IT exam. So got to pay $75 for referal. Lol. I thought I will be bared for POS or Comm Skills since I've missed out so many of their classes. Okay, that's how Shatec earns money. And I think alot of people from school has been bared from exams also lor.

I'm at baby's workplace now. Been waiting for him from 6+ till now. He ends work at 10. Going to torhui soooonnn. Can't believe I'm waiting for somebody for 3h+ without doing anything when I hate waiting. Who ask he is my boyfriendddd. :)

I miss baby.
I love sleeping.
I want to get married.
I need money.
I dislike projects.
I hate school.

Yay! I've cooked pork porridge for baby tonight. Now waiting for him to come back. Its my first time cooking dinner lahh. He always cook for me so now I'm going to cook for him. Lucky its still edible. Haas.

Ohya, I love the wedding convoy we attend on Sunday morning. Saw so many very big and cool bikes. Around 50+ bikes jamming the whole expressway. And I almost die from inhaling the gas coming out from the exhaust pipe.

Madeline.
13 December.
Enjoying the last year of teenage life.

xoxoxo

I strongly believe in, ЌαЯмά

善有善报，恶有恶报，
不是不报，时间未到 -
因果报应。

"What goes around comes around what goes up must come down."