Its late now and I can't get to sleep.

Sometimes I wonder, when a couple gets together for long, is there still love or is it just a habit to have each other? I think most people will start thinking, if I don't have him/her sure die lor. But people take things for granted. They always think that the "thing/people" will always be there for them. When things doesn't go in their way, they will start complaining and making noise just like me. I hope I will change and never be like this.

I feel like going for a good holiday, alone. Its time I should relax myself if not I think I'm going crazy soon. I wanna try the feeling of taking my digital camera and take photos of the surrounding. I wanna walk on the beach with the seawater touching my legs. I wanna have a good body massage and spa. Yes, I want to do this all alone. Bringing somebody along will only add on to my burden. Sometimes I just feel like staying at the beach alone for the whole day without people disturbing me. I need a good rest. I want to stay away from those naggings and shoutings. I know I can't do these now. But this is what I hope for. I want money and I need it.

There're just problems and problem which I can't stop thinking. I can't forget the past, I really can't forget about it. People say forgive and forget. I forgive but never forget. Fuck it. Why must I live in such agony? Why must I be the one suffering and not him? Why does he forget and I have to remember about everything? WHY?!?! I'm going bersak because of this. I want to be free from all these. Somebody save me..

Idk what I'm typing and I guess I'm typing rubbish. Just ingore it.

Good night people.

I will be fine. (: