I must be mad to post 3 times a day but I still gonna post this.

How is it like to lose 2 unborn child and a child who lives for a barely 36 hours leave you? Before the dear child leave, she had tubes all over her body, staying in Neo-Natal Intensive Care Unit. My heart totally sank. Which parents doesn't want their child to grow healthly? On the day her parents collected her birth cert was also the day they collect her death cert. What left after that was ashes. Now I really feel like crying like nobody's business but I can't. Baby is coming to find me to take things and I don't want him to see me with swollen eyes. Got to hold onto my tears. I got to be strong! :)

xoxoxo

I often close my eyes
And I can see your smile
You reach out for my hand
And I'm woken from my dream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And I never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I've always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I love you when
You can't even look me straight in my eyes

I've never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren't you suppose to be
The one to wipe my tears
The one to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
On that only, exist in my dreams

I don't know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I can't do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I'll always love you

Madeline.
13 December.
Enjoying the last year of teenage life.

xoxoxo

I strongly believe in, ЌαЯмά

善有善报，恶有恶报，
不是不报，时间未到 -
因果报应。

"What goes around comes around what goes up must come down."