You & Me with Lil' Autumn. ♥

♥ 吴婉婷爱卓鸿祥 ; 2009 Valentine's ♥

Saturday, October 30, 2010 ; 9:59 PM♥

I actually thought of waiting till his report to be out before deciding anything. But now, I guess I don't need anymore. I know I shouldn't give up and can't give up, but the way he treated me is really driving me up to the wall, making me going nuts.

What Kasandra say is right.

"The more coldness he show you, the more you hurt.
The more you hurt, the more you feel your love for him.
The more you feel your love for him, all the more you want to stay with him.
And all the more you wanna stay with him, the more he pushes you away and treat you with more coldness..."

Yes, everything is a cycle. If I keep doing the same thing, I'll keep getting what I'll be getting and this cycle repeats. Until I do something different. A love game karma I should say?

Since this is how he treated me, deleting me away from MSN and facebook 2 days ago, I know I should put a stop to everything.. I feel so pathetic, begging him to be back by my side for the past 2 weeks, yet end up everything I did is in vain.

Perhaps he hated me for pestering him. But all I want to say is, YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO HATE ME. How much I've sacrifice and give in this relationship, I guess you know the answer better than I do..

Neither will I hate you. Since you don't want me to be your girlf, I tried to be your friend. I know a friend shouldn't say "BABY, I LOVE YOU." Yet I did. Maybe this is why you don't even let me be your friend. What I get from you is "I cannot be bothered and you're nothing to me."

Now I won't call or pester you anymore, you must be happy right? Since this is what you want, I shall give in to you. But I'll still meet you for the last time to get back my storybook. I won't hug or hold you anymore, after taking it I'll just fuck off from your sight.. All the things I give you, keep or dump it away its all up to you. I won't take it with me cos I don't see the point anymore.

I know your current girlf is not someone you love. I rather you find a girl you truly love and be together with her. Don't think too much about your health, you'll be doing well and fine. Take care friend, I know you'll be reading this. Perhaps this is my last time blogging here and I won't delete this bloggie away.

But if one day you tell me "你没有爱过, 你没等过难过", I make sure I'll slap you again. Because its you who ditch me, you who don't want me, you who choose to abandon me; NOT ME.

Goodbye friend. This is what you used to say to others long time ago when I just know you and now I'm returning it back to you. May you be happy always.